I checked yesterday and today--
Looks like I'm hovering around 180lbs. It appears that I fluctuate 2-3 pounds each day, but it's been a while since the scale said I was below 180- so this is what I'm working with.
My goal is to get to 160lbs or a size 8, whichever comes first. Right now I'm tightly squeezed into a size 12, and am consistently busting seams in my (previously loose) size 10 pants. Have you ever wanted to unbutton your pants and hide it under the length of your shirt? I've had those days-- actually too many of those days.
Summer is coming -- at this rate I'll have to hide under my clothes. It's much harder to hide imperfections in the summer. It's hot, and the best dresses are whimsical and barely there. The fall and winter seasons are a chubby girls best friend because people expect you to layer. It's about keeping warm. This said, how awkward will you look in the middle of July with khakis, a turtle neck (this is a problem in itself) and over sized sweater?
even still- this is not about people judging me. This is about me judging me and coming up short. I don't like being out of breath when I climb three flights of stairs or having to wear elastic waistbands when i travel. I want to be comfortable in my skin and exude confidence and grace with my every step.
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